You know what they say about rainy days and Mondays (Archive from Myspace, May 16, 2005)

I normally don't have time for MySpace. I am usually on the computer for work and that's it. Something in my life just ended and I am at loose ends. I am doing things I normally wouldn't. It's funny how decisions are forced on you -- even if they pertain to something that you had a part in creating. Relationships end, people leave, they die, they stop loving you -- all of this is out of your control even if you helped build that relationship. You would think that something that was half yours, that you would have a say over what happens to that thing. But you don't. So I am here, forced into a situation I would not have chosen and that I have no say in the future of. It's also funny how sometimes you think you want something only to find out that you don't. I often think "I wish I could find more time to spend alone" but when I am alone I miss people so much it is tangible.I am reading a book about Sylvia Plath and her husband, Ted Hughes. Did you know that after she stuck her head in the oven because he was cheating on her, the woman he left her for killed herself, too? Interesting literary trivia. I have no intention of sticking my head in the oven but it is an interesting book to be reading at this particular time in my life.